Thursday, September 11, 2008
So, it's been a little while...
It really has been almost three months since I posted anything to my blog. It is unbelievable how time just keeps marching onward while I look twice and three months have passed.
My children have grown, progressed - 5th grade, 2nd grade, and Kindergarten. My baby is going to be 3 on Sunday. Can that be? No more babies around my house...? I tell myself that it is what is supposed to occur, that time must move forward. Then I see glimpses of toddlerhood in his smile, or see her sit there and cuddle her "mine-mine", sneaking sucks of her passy when she thinks no one is watching. Little does she know that these are my favorite times to sit and gaze at her, in awe of what love can create.
I watched my eldest son walk toward the school bus this morning, realizing that his gait is exactly like his father's. These days I see him slowly beginning to try on ideas of the kind of man he wants to be someday. He is entering the most confusing time of his life, and really, there is no way I can prepare him for all that he will go through. We all had to walk through it - those uncomfortable-yet-thrilling formative years - some made it while others, succumbing to the pressure or pain, did not.
I have no real post idea today, no witty stories or cute moments to share, but yet still felt like writing something. I am in a state of melancholy, albeit unexplainable. Maybe it is because of the anniversary of 9/11, and the fact that many people are thinking of those they lost, of the tragedy and unspeakable horror of that crystal clear day. Indeed, has the sky ever been more blue than on that horrific day in American history?
And yet, time moves on, relentless and without regard of what it leaves in it's wake. People pass on out of this world, babies are born, seasons continue to change, tragedies still happen without warning.
We must adapt, live on, love on, and persist.