Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Wave of Peace

It is hard to describe the way I felt this morning standing outside my apartment in the early sunrise, gazing at the colorful trees high on the mountain top through the layers of fog for which the Smokies are so famous. The air was a crisp 27 degrees; the perfect fall morning.

The feeling was sudden, it washed over me like a tidal wave. It covered me. I felt such a sense of tranquility and calmness flow through my body. My mind wanted to scream "but look at what is in front of you, look what just happened, what are you going to do!!" But, for some reason, and I am having a hard time finding the words to lend justice to the feeling, nothing mattered in that moment except for the feeling of peace. I reveled in it, feeling myself uplifted and placed back on track, knowing that although things look very dismal right now, all will be okay.

Today, I feel myself regaining balance, inner clarity and strength, though I can't explain why today and not yesterday or tomorrow, for everything is still in circumstance as it was when I retired to bed last evening. I have no tangible reason to feel better.

Yet, I do.

As I look around, I see things I do not usually notice within the hustle and bustle of normal activity. It is almost as if they are placed there solely for my awakening.

The car with a flat tire - a problem I do not have to face today.
The homeless person sitting in the intersection -- a problem I do not have to face today.
The jar at the gas station asking for money to help the child with cancer -- a problem we are not facing today.

I realize, with unarguable certainty, that although my family is up against some hard times, we could be facing even larger insurmountable issues, and within my gratefulness that we are not, I find lasting peace.


blooming desertpea said...

"I will not forget you. See, I have inscribe you on the palms of My hands." Isaiah 49:15-16

That's what it says on my calender today and that's why you're entitled to feel at peace. He will not forget you and you'll be alright.


Karen MEG said...

Hi there, I came here via family adventure, and just want to say that I hope things turn around for you very soon. That is just awful what happened, it makes me so angry that people can be so awful and prey on others like that! You've got such an amazing outlook in such a short period of time. I hope that something good comes up quickly for you... and with your attitude, it should.

Kellan said...

I loved this post - I too hope things turn around - really! I loved this post! Did I say that already? I too, think you have the right to feel at peace - I'm glad you had this morning! See ya.

Family Adventure said...

I'm glad you are feeling stronger, more centered and upbeat. It can only help you.

I truly wish there was something I could do to help out...but I am too far away, and I simply do not know anyone who could step in.

But I am sending good karma your way, and like you said, things have a way of working themselves out. And they will!

Keep feeling strong, and keeping us updated!


mitzh said...

I am glad that you are feeling better and you're seeing things in a positive light.

Things will get better...


Omaha Mama said...

Just beautiful. I'm looking for a little peace myself. I am glad you've found a little.

slouching mom said...

I'm so glad. It's what will help you find a terrific job, I'm sure of it.

niobe said...

I'm in awe of your ability to reach out and find peace.

InTheFastLane said...

It is this peace that will keep you going. What a wonderful gift you have, to find the peace.

Aliki2006 said...

Beautiful words, and you offer something to think about for certain.

I'm glad you're feeling more positive--things will turn out, I'm sure of it.

painted maypole said...

so glad your outlook is positive. can't wait to hear about the good that is surely coming you way

heartinsanfrancisco said...

I'm reading backward from the most recent post as I am new here, but I have found in my life that we are never given more than we can handle.

You've expressed your feelings so beautifully that it gives hope, not just to you, but to all who read here.

Thank you.

Amy York said...

So happy for you that you have found peace... Hope it continues for you.

Electricbird said...

Ah, this is nothing but Poetry- pure and serene, painfully!